Cupid’s out of arrows?
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Yesterday night, an old girlfriend and I bumped into this retail shops in Wanchai and she said that I, “look amazingly orange”, which she was literally referring to my Polo orange sweatshirt. I replied, “it’s the new season thing” or rather maybe one day you may see me wearing red shirt for all I care. I’m single, no one gives the shit what color is right for me.
And oh, speaking of color, she said, “why not red, it’s the Valentines Day anyway”.
I tell you, this maybe the loneliest day in the world for a single person like myself, but I’ve never liked Valentine’s Day. I have always had a Valentine, well back in my Sophomore years when everyone of us in school would compulsory use and make a paper heart and stick them into our left chest. We exchange Valentines cards to each other by slipping it silently in some books – it’s completely like Hallmarkified.
Nowadays people celebrates Valentines like they are looking for sex not anymore the old cliche of winning your crush by cutting up paper stuff and make a hand-crafted Vee cards. People buy expensive gifts, anything that sparks. In Hong Kong, these trends has become more like a gimmick to get money out of people. And I hated that – or so because I can’t compete with people who have more money to spend than I do. But you know, if someone asks me to be their Valentine, I say, ‘Sure, just don’t expect me to wear red’. Or perhaps, my friend’s right, I can combat the feelings of worthlessness that are seeping into my unwanted soul, if Valentines make me feel blue, wearing red shirt can be a tricky tactics that will make myself feel loved (or at least look like I am).
No. Fuck the reds.
Since I don’t support the holiday, I don’t subscribe to the color scheme. I snubs the hype surrounding Valentines and someone like myself should never really suffer due to lack of a real-life love. Do you see the importance of having a boyfriend or girlfriend to make you feel special because it’s the Vee Day? I guess it’s too passive for an antagonist like myself to neglect this day, I could probably go into a store and open all the boxes of chocolate and smash them infront of that sales lady who managed to put them up carefully altogether.
The biggest thing I hate about Valentines Day is that I feel like a loser. It makes me feel like my single own heart (figuratively, of course) have plucked out of my quivering chest. I’m the type who imagine there are folks out there secretly pointing at me on the street and laughing at my single status. I’m like spending way too much time measuring myself against supposedly happy couples.
So I might be spending the day alone, but that doesn’t mean I can’t enjoy a little relationship imagination. What the heck, I can spend it in my bed and maybe privately browse into some hundreds of xxx videos available out there even if they are not English speaking sites. Because hey, communication is overrated anyways. I didn’t even get an automated Valentines SMS greetings from my telephone company unlike on my birthday.
Back to my old friend, we decided to walk around Wanchai just to curiously see what people were doing. There’s this new bar in the corner of Joe Bananas called BULLDOG and was invited by two Filipina receptionists to take a look. It was their opening night and by the time we reached the elevator, I saw my brother. He said he plays there with his new band so I thought, perfect night. The place was very cozy, not the typical Dusk Till Dawn bar located a few walks away. We were given a starter set of food for free because I ordered the Reds and my friend got her glass of juice. Inside the bar, there’s an area overlooking other bars.
Obviously people on the street makes Valentine’s Day a big deal because girls walk around and paraded all their stuff while clinging to their apple of the eye, the guys with an envelope filled with cash.
It seemed like I just celebrated Vee day but I’m feeling like there’s something really missing. What could it be?
Time After Time
by: Changing Faces
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Happy Hearts’ Day!!!
Actually i was more interested on that “old girlfriend” angle and not that whole account of what Vday is for you … it ended up that she’s really just a friend … hay! no juicy details there! hehehehehehehehhehe!
cheer up … cupid might have more arrows for you next year! oxoxoxoxooxoxoxox!
Hi Grace, there was no string attached, hahaha. She was just an old I mean, friend I used to hang out, not socially or whatever. Hey, I can’t share because there’s nothing else to share really.
Right now, I’m dressed up and don’t know what and where to go. Oh boy, only time can tell. I can’t be sure.
Happy V-Day from the Queer Chef!
“…these trends has become more like a gimmick to get money out of people.”
I’m with you on that brother. You can get these huge bears that cost $AU70, which are amazingly expensive… you also have to count the roses which are also expensive. you could perhaps buy a five shirts from the market places (they are quite good actually). I agree with you on the whole “money” thing. Refering back to the bears, especially those huge ones, you’d expect they cost quite a lot. It’s so stupid, as if you would spend so much on something that wasn’t made by you. I’d get a lot more satisfaction making something and giving it to someone.
I guess people love getting money spent on them because in this materialistic world, it gives some eurphoria or something. Bunch of weirdos.
Lyka, seems like you’re also a fan of that game from Charles. Thanks for visiting.
Weng, Kidding aside, I hope those cuddly toys aren’t Made in China (or Taiwan) or else…. As a matter of fact, I let it past, I ignored it, except of course to the bunch of lovers walking hand in hand at the mall with flowers (too corny to look at, I mean why the mall?) makes me smile.
dear k, nice to see u back, still having problem with your connection???
Happy Valentine’s Day, hey u are not alone and please don’t feel alone when come to Vday!!! u still have us here. same situation here, I spend my v day alone as well. watching move hahaha!!!!
Vince, I’m always here, well obviously only when my Wifi connection goes “sappy” then I can browse-happily. I think I’m a loner, not to the extent that I would stay away from people, lock doors and all that but in terms of commitments, I always imagine the worse scenario so I maintain to go on solo. My lovelife is inexistence.
happy hearts day, K!
you’re all dressed up and no where to go? here’s a suggestion…ready?
hurry, go buy a one way ticket to Hawaii and we can drive/cruise around the island…we have a long 3 day weekend coming up…can eat, shop and party to our hearts content
think about it? hehe
C, after I wrote this blog, I’ve decided to look semi-clean, like I was meeting someone for a date. I walked around the malls and it was now on a “LAST CALL” sales as the CNY approaches, there will be another one (I think), then I had my usual ‘dining-out’ by msyelf and headed to watch a movie — guess what movie? “The Night in the Museum”, because I wanted a good laugh, at least no one will notice me alone in the theatre (until the lights was on). I noticed I was the only “single” person watching that movie. I felt like the “tiny people” in the movie myself.
PS. Check out my blog for this link to “finding your superdate!”
‘Tis very fun.
if it is any consolation to you, i didn’t wear red clothes either on V-Day. instead, i wore black blouse and gray sweatshirt.
i didn’t realize your brother works there too. ano kaya papuntahin ko diyan anak to be soloist in your brother’s band for a day or two?
uwi ako ng marso, have u decided on yours?
Weng, for some strange reason, the “hit it” (to get your score or something) button didn’t actually work. Well even online quiz about getting a partner is never really that easy (I have no patience here).
Belle, they play mostly “pops” (the Manager suggests) although he’s into some lounge music Sypro Gyra kind of thing, he really play well in most of anything. I don’t know for the acoustic since he’s a bassist. On the holiday thing, I can’t make compromises, I’ve done that last time – almost planned pero di natuloy.
hmm, I spend it with my wife.
My wife really likes valentine’s day, I was kind of against it before I met her. I had no choice but to embrace it. It’s an excuse to try and do something romantic, if you need it.
Range, hehehe obviously you had no choice at all. I purely needed a coach to help me become more than just being romantic. Forget it, I don’t know what that means.